I Have a Problem

'Put me anywhere, just put Your glory in me...' This is a line from a song from IHOP KC. Today I was reminded of it, and it has presented me with a problem. The problem is that I can't sing it.

I want to stay here. In this country, in this place. I feel my time has come and gone too quickly and I'm not ready for what lies on the other side of June. I don't want God just to put me anywhere. I want to be in the place that has captured my heart.

With every day that passes, I try and try but I cannot figure out how to stay here. Lovely laws mean that at the end of my 12 months, I have to leave. My heart breaks a little each time I think about it.

I can't even think about it, not really. All I really know is that right now, I want to stay.

There's more

The more I'm here on this adventure, the more I realize there's more to experience. In every way. There are more countries to visit, more people to meet, more friendships to make, more songs to sing, more books to read, more words to write, more hair products to use, more, more, more.

For me, one of the best things about spending a significant amount of time in a different country is discovering that there's more. There are more thoughts, more opinions, more ways of doing things than I originally thought. Things I was closed to or perhaps blind to, I find myself more open to, discovering there are more possibilities. Things I thought I couldn't do before, places I thought I couldn't visit before, adventures I thought I couldn't take before, I am becoming more and more aware that I can. I feel as if the doors to the rest of the world have been opened to me. I can go anywhere, I can do anything. I feel free to go, to do, to be...more.